Derp in Current Events

I self-sabotaged again. I have a little pile of important things I need to do to start getting my life together. I have to face the music, so to speak. I need to face the good, bad and ugliness of my situation in full. Open my mail, check my voicemails, deal with collectors, look at my taxes, get my ducks in a row to apply for that apartment, create a budget, update my resumes, look for a second job, prepare to move into my mother’s basement between residences, etc. It overwhelmed me and my depression hit me yesterday so I just laid around and put on some music and lived inside my head. I like the context Ralph Smart gives depression. He calls it a deep rest. That’s essentially what it is, to me at least. Holding it together for so long I need to let it go once in a while. It wasn’t soul-crushing, I have come to realize that it is only soul-crushing when I am shifting between paradigms of information. When you leave one for another the previous belief structures have to die. I literally grieve the previous paradigm without being conscious of it. I sound esoteric here, what else is new?

Whenever I return to Facebook after doing some time in their social media Gulag I come back more pointed. Blunter. We don’t have time to breadcrumb the cable news cult and we don’t have time to be gentle about leftists. A few entries ago I wrote about Rebel Wisdom discussing the dark side of spirituality and they called it eugenics. I think I can see why it looks that way. Literally, people are talking about leaving these cable news cultists behind, these feckless humans who do not have any aluminum-free brain cells to rub together to figure out what is going on here. We can’t help them, they don’t want to evolve past their news. They’re going to win stupid prizes for voluntarily brainwashing themselves.

The con-19 products are now killing babies who are breastfeeding from mothers who took it. We have a responsibility to be intelligent. Anyway, there are even people out there already grieving the huge loss of life that is coming from these things. It’s easy to be angry about them and at them online but when I’m at work I just feel for them. They want to live their lives and feel safe. I overheard a colleague at work talking about his booked appointment with his doctor to get the AstraZeneca vaccine. Health Canada approved that one after a dozen countries in Europe banned it because of blood-clotting. It’s not my responsibility to tell him. He’s in the age group that it is at higher risk for. The time for conflict is coming, it’s giving me existential dread. The passports are coming.

Israel, they are rushing to be the first country to do the great reset. They have a smart city. Their passports are out. Doctors can lose their license if they don’t vaccinate someone. This is insane. There is a media blackout about what is happening there. In Ukraine, patriots are literally grabbing politicians off the street and tossing them in garbage bins. Our politicians are not serving us. They’re growing the UN for the central banks and China. I can’t tell if their plan is falling apart or coming together. A document was released showing that Trudeau signed over the Canada Infrastructure Banks to the Republican Party of Canada. Why would he do that? What is happening? All political parties in Canada are on board with Agenda 2030. They’re all working to end our sovereignty. The major parties are at least. The People’s Party of Canada is red-pilled but this Republican Party of Canada came out of nowhere, why would they have the banks? The Conservative party is going through an identity crisis. They want to be liberal-lite. Out of nowhere O’Toole publicly embraces everything the left stands for. He doesn’t know his base at all. Now he’s purging his party of national populists. Just like the US is trying to do. National populism is racist and going to destroy our weather. lol

Whatever, I finished my coffee. I need to work on my masculine energy here and just get shit done. I haven’t done any form of exercise in weeks. I’m starting to feel disappointed in myself about it. I’ll do that today too. I really want to go for a run but the roads are too dirty. The air is awful. My knees don’t like the cold weather either. It’s warmer but not warm enough. I am getting so angry and frustrated with the weather. Just be warm already. For fuck sakes I want to step outside and feel warm. We haven’t hit the double digits yet. I’m 35 and going to be living in my mother’s basement for a couple of weeks! I’m one drinking problem away from being premium dating material. Oh happy day. My city is a real classy joint, people go to the finest prisons. I am so backed up on checking my comments on here also. I’m just not in the mood for the narcissists that troll me.

The biggest reason I keep putting off my stuff is that I can’t get any privacy to do it. I have kids crawling around me and stuff here and I can’t even stomach it anymore. These people never leave. Like, right now I’m surrounded. Ok, on with my day.