Got the rug pulled out in Torridaussity Two

From under me. Got a text a TEXT that no one wants to get from someone they’re seeing or saw....I can’t even process it right now. I feel like I did 3 years ago. I just am lost and broken. I can’t believe I have to deal with this again worse than three years ago. I know I’m vague it’s too hard to write out exactly what is going on. I just want to give up on life. Like no I won’t hurt myself, but I don’t have the will to care anymore. I’m so broken I don’t think I can be fixed. I literally am dead inside, but hurt so bad at the same time that I can’t breathe.