Shit changes. in Since OD is shutting down....

Anyways, so my Mom was here over the weekend. She brought snacks with her and didn’t eat a shit ton of my food. Things at home are just as awful as ever. She said she can’t imagine buying another house with my Dad. We went and saw the grandparents this week and it was pretty emotional for me. It just kills me that they are getting old, not in their right minds, and probably won’t be around much longer. I’m glad that they are still with us and I love being able to hug them and just listen to their voices.

So the guy that I was seeing. Everyone told me to just ghost him. Well I did that for about 3 days and he was texting so I decided to be a decent enough person to just let him know that I’m going to transfer to another state with my job and he said I wasted his time and I should have told him in the beginning even though I was just presented with this a couple of days ago. He literally wouldn’t stop so I fucking blocked him. There was just too many red flags and I don’t wear them bitches like blindfolds. I have no fucking doubt this dude was going to put me through the same ringer someone else did about 8 years ago. I brought that up to him one day and he interrupted me to change the subject, which I noticed he did quite often or would simply hang up on me if I disagreed about something.

I’m glad that I gave it a whirl though because it just reminded me how much I enjoy just being single not worry about someone and that I can’t deal with men’s selfishness. I think his intentions weren’t genuine and it really freaked me out when he was talking marriage and using the God awful 4 letter word love after 3 fucking days!! I also was annoyed that even with me being sick and my daughter up late, he would still be super pushy about coming over to smash even when I said no!! He also wanted a boob pic exposing my nipples and I had repeatedly told him no but he kept asking.

He made it pretty clear that he didn’t respect boundaries and I don’t think that he actually wanted to be with me. I think he wanted someone sitting around waiting to hear from him and not care how that would affect me. I was with someone that was the same way where he started out with a bunch of excuses of why he couldn’t come around and was super nice about it so I let myself get strung along and then after awhile, he just became a complete asshole about it and I could definitely see this guy being the same fucking way.

Anyways, I’m hoping that they help with student loans. I have paid that shit faithfully for 5 years and would love to be done paying it. I also have a new bill from the chiropractor because of that car accident so I get to pay that too. I’m seriously sick of adulting. The bills never fucking stop.

I also need to get a job. I miss working. Hopefully I’ll find something soon. I have been putting in applications like crazy.

More later.