Not in a good place in Torridaussity Two

I’m struggling pretty hard right now. Partly because I’m stressed with work changes,, financial stress,, and health issues and because of my dating life. I’ve still been seeing Dan the lawyer, but it’s always on his terms and I at first was okay with it because some affection and attention is better than none right? Right until like always I catch feels and want more than the crumbs I’m offered. So do I end things and be completely alone or keep going so at least admidst all the negative crap going on when we are together he makes me smile. I’m damned if I do and damned if I don’t.