Mixed in Journal

feelings.
I am deeply sad.
I have, for the last few months, acted on principle and faith that DH would “do the right thing” and commit himself to our marriage. But.... he hasn’t.
I should not be so surprised, because I am a complete hypocrite. I chose him, after all.
I go on about how he’s not doing what he told me he’d do. Well, here I am not doing what I said I would do.
I am so nervous about standing firm in the consequences. Just give him a bit more time I whine to myself, He just needs more support, or He is afraid of what might happen or Perhaps if I am so dedicated to him, he will do it also.
But none of that is right. All of that is lies.
And I get frustrated with women for appealing to emotion. lul It’s me
There is no compromise on principle. There is no appeal on virtue. I cannot bargain with him to uphold his promises.
He broke his promise.
And, I need to stop making fucking excuses about it.