Hopeless in Current Events

Kyle got back to me, he and Evan do not have a way to create space for me. My mother officially said that she can’t help either. It’s Leanne’s birthday weekend so I’m not going to confirm her offer until Monday. I have that job interview tomorrow and if I end up at Leanne’s I don’t know if it is worth the commute. Literally she lives on the opposite end of the city and it’s for a part-time position, 16-20 hours a week. I can barely lift my arms I have been feeling so crushed since yesterday. It’s like I’m wearing led. I’ve never been so shafted or helpless and hopeless. I don’t know what to do. I just don’t. If I figure something out I don’t think I owe it to my family to stay in touch. It’s vindictive but I don’t think I’ll be able to forgive and forget this. I’ve always been the first one there for them and this disappointment is too much.