The Road Not Taken in Hi

I've been very fortunate to have what I consider to be good jobs. I've also been fortunate to keep good relationships with the people I work with and for.

For the past year my former boss has been trying to recruit me to come to work for him at his new job. I just haven't been able to let/make myself do it. The reasons don't matter and in trying to explain in to friends, it doesn't make sense, not even to my own ears.

My current employer is having a bit of a slump and once again my former boss began recruiting me. This time I thought I should do it. He really worked hard to get me a great offer. I signed paperwork for the background check, I took the drug test and I gave notice at my current job. All set, right?

Not so fast ..... I gave notice on Friday, and on Monday I had a nice counter offer. I was able to voice some of my concerns to my current boss (who is the President of the small company I work for) and he was able to answer to all of my concerns and I was able to get an even better offer to stay.

I shall always wonder if I made the right choice. Had I made the opposite decision .... I still would have always wondered......Wrap your mind around that! I still.would. have wondered! My mind is like a record player stuck on repeat (Remember record players?)

I have nothing to complain about, yet I have been irritable since all of this started. Really need to just "get over it". The decision has been made.

Still I continue to obsess and make myself a mess. We have no guarantees. None of us. The best I could do is go with my gut. The gut that continues to rumble and mock me.