I don't like to say no in meh...

I don’t like saying this especially to my grandbabies. They wanted to come over. It’s not like they don’t spend time with me or at my house. It’s just not good for real. I need to recharge and I always have something to do and would not like the added hassle of having to remind kids to behave, be quiet, settle down, no, stop that. It’s a part of child rearing, but it’s freaking exhausting and kids don’t really understand how exhausting they are and can be.

It’s just after 12:30 and I’ve not done anything. I guess I don’t have to if I don’t want to.

I asked, well, I told my son that I’m getting older. He has to help me out before I ask him to do anything. Whenever I say things like that, I can see him questioning me in his head without saying anything aloud. But he agrees and I still have to ask him.

Even when they are grown, parenting is exhausting.

He suggested that we go walking before he goes to work this afternoon. I suggested that if we go walking let’s go somewhere to do it. I don’t want to walk in the immediate neighborhood because it smells like dogs, dog poop and human piss. It’s humid these days and I’m not feeling that smell. He scoffed at it so here I am.

I ate a couple of pieces of leftover fried chicken from Lee’s with honey. I also made lemon, acv, and honey to drink with hit water. I swigged some wine, and now I’m ready to sleep again.

I woke up early, made me go back to sleep. Woke up about 7, made me go back to sleep. Been up since about 9 something. Then grandson called me on Duo around 10. Watched a little tv, now I’m in my room.

I got $60 at my disposal, but the only place I may go today is to drop stuff off at mom’s and that’s about it.

Mammogram is scheduled for October 26. I think that’s my nephew’s birthday.

Yes this is incredibly boring. I need boring right now. I’ve been texting people and making sure they are all ok, letting them know I love them, etc.

Going to lie down now.

Love, Peace, & Light.

Kindest regards,
Sister