Entry in Journal 2020

This is quick since I’m tired and sick.

I’m in a new relationship but I feel like I’ll ruin it. I’m scared. I’m terrified. I feel ugly. And fat and I dont know what to say or when to. And I keep having overloads, where everything is too much and I cry about the day. I’m scared because I’m never good enough and l might be fat and I hate being not enough. I dont wanna be here, here as in this world. I feel like I’ll die before the end of senior year. This year us senior year it went by all to damn fast its. It’s scary.