Taking a break in Weight Loss Surgery

Cause iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii don’t wanna work i just wanna bang on de drum all daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay.

It’s all rainy and gloomy.

I was supposed to trap this weekend but the lady hasn’t confirmed with me that she told whoever is feeding not to feed. I’m not even getting up early to attempt that location if they’re not hungry.

I may ask a couple of my cat ladies who are also out trapping if they need help. I have 2 traps in my car or I could transport some caught kitties.

I’m swallowing buckets of water right now cause my water has been lacking lately. I’m trying to get in 8 cups for various reasons.
Those extra pounds from last weekend’s Chinese food is still hanging out. Despite eating better the rest of the week.

I’m really disappointed by it. It makes me not want to try at all when it takes a month to lose a couple of pounds and one bad day to gain em all back.

I feel like there’s something wrong with my body. I don’t have any thyroid issues, I just discovered I have diabetes but it just doesn’t seem to be fair to be resisting all this bad food and exercising with a trainer and having nothing to show for it.

Like I can not help or change my own body - not long term anyway.
And I know that I’m getting the surgery and weight loss should be easy from there on out but eventually I’m gonna stall or I’m gonna have a cheat meal and I worry I’m going to gain so much so quickly that won’t come off that this surgery won’t be successful.

And that’s a true fact of it. Everyone else who has had this surgery is still on a life long diet and a life long battle to not go back to where they were. They’re still walking a tightrope of balance even though they’re a normal 145lb person. They still can’t really let loose with their eating cause they could stretch their stomach back to obese size with little effort.

I wish they could make the stomach like a hard plastic or something that never stretched and once you got the surgery you never could over eat again.

Last updated December 20, 2020