Nothing To See Here in Current Events

My sister was in town this weekend. It was nice to see her. My brother and I Facetimed the other day also. He told me about the work that is available where he is. Some of the stuff he was saying about the people there though… was very bigoted and racist. People have a right to be an asshole I guess. I would straighten that shit out real quick. The brother I never met lives in BC somewhere now that I think of it. My father knocked someone up before he met my mother. Anyway, these are not dream jobs he was talking about but I would need something to land on. My mother told us that she is comfortable with us visiting our grandmother now that the threat is low in my province. I will be visiting her tomorrow. Next weekend we are having a big belated BBQ for her. My mother is probably excited. She was so hurt that we couldn’t have an Easter dinner. I’m about to head over to visit with my mother. Kyle texted me this morning to let me know that he will be BBQing us supper. My mother probably went and picked up some Beyond Meat. I have been spending a lot of time with my niece and nephew lately. I do live with them after all. I like being outside so I bring them with me for my walks and such. Speaking of which, I called Toni to arrange for us to go to the provincial park for a bike ride. I think I can fit them in my hatchback. I want a beach day.

I tried to rewatch the Umbrella Academy yesterday. I can’t connect to it. I was so attracted to Klaus the first time around and now emotionally unstable drug addicts are… a turn off as they should be. No offence. I’ll still try and watch the second season when it comes out. I’ll try and power through this one again tonight maybe.

Bev agreed to be my “accountability partner”. That just means that she will basically be a cheerleader for me to get my shit together. I had to suck it up and admit to myself that I need help. It’s not a lot of help but emotional support goes a long way for me. I still won’t be telling anybody about my possible move to BC. I haven’t given it a lot of thought. Doing it spontaneously is probably the best route. I could get a shit job here and source it for just enough to get started over there. My plan here was to go to school though. Decisions decisions.

I have Avril Lavigne on for some throwback right now. I started working out on Wednesday. I pulled a muscle the other week, my left bicep and I don’t think it was ready for my workouts but I’m surviving. I’m back to my goal weight. I’m aiming up, not down. This time no gut. I got my booty back which is perfect because I need it to flirt with people when I’m not looking lol. Speaking of which, I catch myself trying to not sexualize people. I don’t feel connected to that anymore either. Like, when I see an attractive guy I just don’t let myself get all pervy in my mind. I think that programming came from my 20s where it was normalized in the community and culture I grew up around. It doesn’t feel right anymore. For me anyway. I’m a prude, officially. This is random but every time I see a guy with his dog it does something to me. Makes me swoon. I think I contradicted myself here. Anyway, I should get gone. There’s not much going on here. Just getting hyped about the end of this lockdown in my province.