Govern Mental in Current Events

Here is where I think the disconnect is. I might get a little esoteric here but I am turning to my spirit guides to receive their messages right now. I am watching them also try to make sense of everything that is going on. They see the same things I do. They’re taking a lot of heat for speaking about it and I am avoiding all comment sections and DM’s for the time being because I am not as strong at keeping my emotions out of my sense-making and choice-making like they are. I think the disconnect is that it is assumed that we do not believe that the wound in the black consciousness is real because we are not acknowledging it. I can only speak for myself here but I do know that their pain is real. I am also not denying where it came from. I understand the generational trauma. It’s just that history is his story and not our story. It’s going to take too long to explain what I mean by that. I have an entry about it somewhere.

They had us for years in school where they separated us by race, creed, political ideas & gender. Had us all believe that we are all separate. They pinned us against each other to be able to control us. They told us that the world is supposed to be this way. It’s a program, it’s a matrix and it is a system that is used to feed our ego and not our soul. We are life and they are killing us in installments. Beliefs are just conclusions that we make about something that we do not know. Humans don’t know one atom in its entirety. We know nothing Jon Snow. We know only how to use everything. The more we “know” the less we feel alive. We are spiritual beings having a temporary experience and I think the revolution that my spirit guides are eluding to is the one where we stop being human doings and become human beings. However, not everyone can go, not everyone is going to make it because the truth cannot be told it has to be realized. It takes a lot of shadow work and that is why I am always trying to cheer those on who are doing that work even though they are not aware that they are doing it.

The media is hijacking everybody’s emotions to control their actions. The “chosen ones” can see right through it. We’re not having it. This is not how life has to go. We can govern our own minds, “govern mental”. The world is never going to be the same after this. The new paradigm is coming. It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a society that is sick. COVID-19, quarantine and lockdown, media censorship, police brutality, riots in the streets (I call this the free trial of communism). These are the symptoms of a sick society. Our minds are sick. A lot of us are going to wake up and see that and start working toward living a conscious life. We are going to integrate our shadows and become whole and holy again. It’s destructive, it’s a death you have to unlearn everything you thought you knew about yourself and the world. The only way out is in. It’s not understanding, it’s innerstanding.

Am I doing the right thing? I have to ask myself that more often. We’re all reacting differently. We all have our own skills, capacities and interests and I want to be part of the solution and not part of the problem. It’s taking me a lot of time to be able to speak up. I am just trying to learn how to frame information in a way that is… I don’t know. Digestible? I’m fresh out the leftist hivemind and as a Heyoka, an empath, I think I can be fluent in “liberal”. That is just a Canadian way of saying leftist. I’m trying to voice what I see in a way that will hopefully bring someone to at least understand that somebody else can have a different opinion. The problem appears to be that there is no room for discussion which means that nobody is getting enriched at all. Victim mentality is the dis ease that plagues humanity. There is a science to creating misery, that is called passing the buck. Personal responsibility just means that you have an ability to respond. Your life is responding to all the choices you do and don’t make. You experience everything from within your body. I’ll need more time to explain that one also. I’m not saying that I know the absolute truth or anything like that. I’m just inherently skeptical about what I see when it feels dishonest. I’m newly skeptical about what I feel but that’s another story. I don’t want to be running around on the streets screaming conspiracy or anything like. I just want to liberate people from the hivemind that I have been trying to break free from. We can participate in this matrix and in the identities we give ourselves without having to belong to it. I am not who you think I am. I am not who I think I am. I am who I think you think I am.

Anyway, I should go send Hetal my daily DM. “Hetal! Are you died? Are you China yet? to which she will reply Yes, go fuck yourself today. China can kiss my ass.* She’s still stuck in India but she now has a booked flight to come back to Canada on the ninth. I don’t want her in India while there is that much tension at their border with China. She is looking for work to move back to Winnipeg. She hates Ontario. I do too. Ontario and Quebec get all the representation in my country because their populations are denser and we don’t exactly have an electoral college when it comes to certain things. Our political system is a mess. I struggle to understand immensely. Also, Ontario has too many commies and Quebec has too many separatists.

I don’t listen to music and I stopped watching most TV and movies. Everything feels so forced to be woke. I just want a good story without cringy forced empowering moments. For music, I don’t want words I understand. So either I listen to music without lyrics or I listen to music in a different language. I just want to feel. Here is a song that stirs up my insides.