Scared in Journal

My default is to forestall feeling my emotions before I even have a chance of being aware they’re there. I found a great place to start expressing myself where I feel safe enough to accept feedback about how I’m doing this. I think it has gotten me to a place where I can reflect on sharing outside that community now.
Yesterday an acquaintance told me on FB “You always have something to say (observations usually) not much fun....lol”. This is a person who likes to have fun (obviously) and is rather coarse in her style of humor. All of which is completely well and good, and I rather like this person.
Her comment makes me think of how I always express things that are objective fact. I strongly hesitate to share my thoughts, feelings or preferences about the fact. Almost like I’m a reporter of my senses. And she’s right. It’s not much fun.
But it’s safe.
Because sharing myself at all- even a personal thought, opinion, or preference, is an admission of vulnerability. If there is anything of myself out there it’s open for people to attack, disparage, etc