May the best man win in Current Events

I’m a little annoyed with Toni again. She called me this morning during a breakdown she was having at work. I calmed her down. Now I just got off the phone with her again after a two-hour conversation. Honestly, that is not at all what is bothering me. Once again she brought up Bob and this time he wants to buy a house and have her as a roommate. At least she isn’t stressing me out over this on Christmas day or on my birthday again. First, she and I were going to move in together. That was always the plan for the last couple of years. Then she changed jobs so we waited, then I lost my job so we waited, then Corona happened so we’re waiting. She now wants to wait until she gets a new job now which, whatever. I’m out of work myself anyway thanks to Miss Rona. This moving in together is not happening anytime soon. So now she tells me that she is basically waiting to see who is ready for her to move in first. May the best man win? Bob is her fuckboy that she can’t quit. I think that I will just make this decision easy for her and just call it off. Maybe this is my ego talking but I am not okay with me a backup plan or a second choice. I’m adaptable and I can find my own way. Maybe this will teach me to stop thinking that I can rely on a person… kidding! I’m not that vindictive and spiteful. However, it would be easier for me to not have to depend on somebody who is this fickle.

She says that she doesn’t see herself settling down with a man for the rest of her life. That she just wants to buy a house and have roommates. For myself, I do want to buy a house also but with a husband. I want kids and that whole Stepford fag life. Maybe I misled Toni into thinking that our arrangement was forever? We both want to go back to school so this was supposed to help us do that. Now she’s just desperately trying to cure the one thing nobody seems to be able to cure… loneliness. I’m not lonely. I am whole and holy. No T no shade but shade. Toni does not owe me anything. The world has nothing to give me. I’ll figure something out. Maybe Thickie on Grindr is looking to wed? lol ugh. I need to go align my Chakras and Kundalini myself to sleep or some shit like that. I’m feeling disappointed and I want to not experience that. #CrystalsNotPistols