Well This Escalated Quickly in Current Events
- May 5, 2020, 9:11 p.m.
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I honestly haven’t let my feelings about everything going on right now sink in. I ran out of meds a few days ago so maybe that is why it is all starting to hit me? I got around to getting that filled today so I should be relatable again soon enough. I was thinking about my mother’s respiratory problems and how little her chances of surviving C19 would be. I can tell that she is getting a little depressed because she really wants to see her children and grandchildren. She missed out on having us all together on Easter. Now again this weekend for mother’s day. I’m constantly reminding myself to be grateful that she has her health right now. I’m not a praying man but for the sake of putting good vibes and thoughts out there, I am a praying man. My damn vivid imagination has me already trying to emotionally prepare myself for the worst. A friend of hers just recently lost their mother to C19. So what happens exactly when one is diagnosed? Will my mother have to be quarantined and left to fight alone? To die alone? Then what happens with the body? Do they need it to be incinerated? I don’t want her body destroyed or drained and stuffed and displayed in a box. It goes straight back to the earth that it came from unless she has a will. Are we doing social distancing funerals? Are funeral homes doing live streaming now? I would rather not find out. I’m starting to feel a little bit of panic so I’m just going to go for a walk and call that woman.
*Edit
fuck the walk I’m going to have a few beers instead lol
Last updated May 05, 2020
Oswego ⋅ May 07, 2020
I can certainly understand your concerns about your mother in these awful C-19 times. Inconceivable to me not to be able to be with a parent in their final days and hours. I went through so much with my Mom at home the last week of January. Fortunately, we didn’t have to deal with the pandemic. Like you, I would be imagining vivid scenarios for what might happen and the aftermath. My advice is to reach out as often as you can to her in love and gratitude for the health she has now, and sublimate worries to living one day at a time as fully as possible.
TL Oswego ⋅ May 08, 2020
Oh yes, I been harassing her all day. I'm sorry about your loss :(