well... in A new start

Nothing much has changed here. But then again why would it? Same routine every day. Some days we throw in a breakdown of sorts. Either mine or a child. The oldest is not enjoying distance learning. Some of it is ok but she has a computers class that would be easier with a teacher. My youngest thinks she needs to be at grandma’s all the time so grandma gets to do her schooling. Her being at grandma’s is an issue with me but whatever, it wont change until we move.

Have heard nothing in regards to an offer on our house. Kind of sitting stagnant. I need to talk to my friend and see if we are still buying their place. If so we need to figure out the living situation before we get to that point. Just feeling uncertain right now. What will we do if they decide not to sell? What will we do? I don’t see anything available that will work for us. If we would have sold this house sooner we would already be past this point. I don’t know if we want to paint outside or not, I don’t know if we want to reduce the price, I don’t know if we want to offer a credit for what we don’t do. It’s only been 5 months, I mean it could happen. I really think if it doesn’t sell by the time the listing runs out I should take it down and do some massive work and relist with someone else for more. I watch all the houses around me sell. All more than I am asking. The one gets listed for less… I expect it will sell before mine.

That upsets me. I mean there is enough going on to upset me. I’m over it. I agree with herd mentality but so many others don’t. Yes, I still do things as normal. But grocery shopping is getting stressful, you must follow these lines and blah blah blah. Oh and so many people saying they are better connected thanks to this thing virtually but me nope. No one contacts me. No one checks on me. Not even my kids or husband ask how I’m doing. How my day was. So yeah a little bit depressed here but whatever. It will change eventually.

I so baddly want to spend money right now. I did. A little. Will get some groceries tomorrow so I’ll spend more. But not what I want. What I want is expensive. I want a new tablet or chromebook but why? So I can play all my games in one place. Not on my phone. All the tablets I look at are the cheap ones so they aren’t the best. So I don’t get one. I discuss money spending with the husband, I used to not so much. But he’s the one working, I’m not. I just get child support. I need to be smart with money so when we move we have money for stuff.

Ahh. I guess. Off to watch Secrets of Skinwalker Ranch.