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Introvert Problems in Current Events

  • May 3, 2020, 5:57 a.m.
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I’ve given up trying to wake up at a decent time. I have to admit that to myself right now. It’s not like I actually hate sleeping until I can’t sleep no more. It’s not like I actually hate feeling fully rested throughout my day. My problem is not waking up though, it’s falling asleep. I’m tossing and turning until dawn. I can’t turn my mind off. I went so long without this problem. My anxiety disorder is creeping in also. My heart hurt yesterday, or was it my chest? Or my back? Or my lung? I’m too thin I can’t tell. I just need structure back. I’m aimless. I can fix that though. I really need to learn how to meditate. Honestly my low key goal is that I want to be a true Yogi. Not the adulterated western version of a Yogi. Yoga means union and it is a union of mind, body, action and energy.

Speaking of energy, we have no power in the house. The whole neighbourhood actually. It’s windy as fuck out there so this sucks. I really need some coffee. My roommates are still going to Anola for the night I believe. I can’t wait to just be alone. I’m starting to feel impatient just thinking about it. I hope the power comes back on soon. It’s been over an hour now. My phone is at 15%.

For shits and giggles here is an incomplete list of my personal pet peeves as an introvert:
-Small talk. When a stranger starts up a conversation with me for no reason. I have restless bitch face for a reason.
-Panhandlers. Just fuck off. They are a huge issue in my city, you can’t go anywhere. I’m too old to care now.
-Courtesy checks. When I’m out dinning I want my server to be fucking invisible. Fuck the fuck off. Fuck off until you’ve fucked off the whole way around the world and then fuck off again. I’m still nice and I tip Don’t get me wrong.
-Dog petters. When you walk your dog and people want to make that their business.
-Friendly neighbours. When they smile and wave when we cross paths. It’s so awkward
-Smokers. I quit smoking but when I used to smoke I couldn’t go anywhere without a bitch needing a cigarette or a lighter from me and then then trying to make me their best friend to keep mooching from me.

It’s not that I hate people. The space and energy it takes for me to interact with people drains me immensely because it does not come naturally for me. It takes a conscious effort and I would rather just not spend that energy when I don’t have to. Especially since I have a big personality. Any other introverts out there? What are your pet peeves?


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