the stupid virus thingy. coronavirus. in 2007: March 1: transferred fom FOD

or, as i’ve taken to calling it, the stupid virus thingy/the virus thingy.

well. i won’t get it. [how do you know? well. i don’t.]. no but a. i’m not a senior citizen and 2. i’m not social like. at all. and as part of a mental condition i have. [which yes again. i know i’ve not yet stated what it is. not quite ready to but gettin there.]. um. i have no desire to meet people. and there are fewer people out which i like. so for me this is great. [well. i mean not that some people are getting it obviously.]. i don’t work so it’s not like i’d lose a job. i don’t have.............i’m not in school. as for questions about my finances. that’s personal.
my psych. cancelled on me via my mom which is fine. no i like. my psych. [again i see a psychologist. they’re not the meds people.]. but. i don’t like when she gives me advice. or, when anyone gives me it. or when she points out others’ side of things when 90% of the time. i already know. so i’m really ok not seeing her. my psych. that is. again. i do like her though.
bc i have depression. and i’m apathetic to begin w/ for w/e reason. i’m not like. doing a whole lot to prevent getting sick. i get laryngitis a lot.........or like. small things like that. i don’t know what it’s like. to not have something like that. some people are like ‘i never get sick’ really? i have no idea what that’s like. like and i’m ok w/ that. before anyone says anything. [but why? ya know. i don’t want to analyse right now.]. i don’t go to the dr. that often and no i’m not going to change that.
um. so yesterday i went to the store. i don’t like going to the store. on holidays cause verbally. [as opposed to online] i don’t want to be told. ‘happy...........’ w/e holiday it is. it’s like. so happy. when people do that. too happy. but no one did that which. i liked. i thought. prior to going that more um. aisles would be empty that were. like the food aisles but no. the only one that was fairly - mostly empty was. the pasta aisle. so i got jasmine rice. oh and cheese feta. and um vit. water. i was going to get butter but that seemed. really complicated emotionally if that makes sense. [not like. the actual physical act of getting it. the butter] so. didn’t get that. oh and i got sourdough rolls well. apparently technically they’re actually. hot dog buns which i didn’t realise at first. i was just like ‘ooh sourdough!’ but there’s no rule that says a person has, to use them just for hot dogs. i don’t eat hot dogs. cause people think i’m a vegetarian but like i’m not. i’m not really asking. what to do about it btw. basically. i have anxiety. and that’s why i avoid. i’ve gotten these little snack things w/ meat in them at the store a few times. but that’s cause people at the store don’t know me. i’ve had bacon and chicken. from the fridge when we’ve/they’ve had it. in there. the people i live w/. and shrimp once recently. um. right oh i also got. these sandwich things. the um. subway sandwich bun. types. they’re everything bread you know like everything bagels but not. they’re easier to pull apart. so i’ve been eating those. i had cheese yesterday. and ham. and ooh i got milk. and had it outside of the store. i got vit. water. as i said. so i’m doin alrite.
um. the one drawback. to the stupid virus thingy is at the store they were all out of the pasta/pasta sauce i buy was going to. buy so. but other then that..........it’s not a big problem for me personally. apparently. the thing people buy most at the store at least. as of late is/are. pasta and grains. ooh and refried beans. and yes i know why. stockpiling. it’s interesting. to see like. that. er.........um. wow i’m having trouble articulating that. um............oh to see the item people buy the most of. that’s what i meant. the interesting part.
on what i said before about apathy. Conversely. i’m also empathetic which is why i don’t watch the news regularly. [i get my news online. on bing. they have headlines. on their search page. well i guess that’s redundant cause bing is a search engine. well some search engines don’t have that the headlines.].
wow i can ramble on about bread.