These words here she'll never see, my emotions I keep. in Everything and Nothing

I sat and waited
I wish I knew before
Inside I’ve changed
Fell further away today

I’m in my head
What is this feeling
Blackened self
Losing everything

The slow goodbye
These feelings aside
What I said
Turned you away inside

I’m in my head
Here holding you
In my head
I forget

The slow start
Feelings in their unrest
Again judged
I opened up
Insecure

I’m in my head
What is this feeling
Blackened self
Losing everything

The slow goodbye
These feelings aside
What I said
Turned you away inside

I just don’t know anymore