suicide attempt. no not recently. in 2007: March 1: transferred fom FOD

it’s weird to call it an ‘attempt’ when. the person starts to um. commit the act.
anyway. so like i said a little over 2 yrs. ago was my last suicide attempt. er............that i started to......yeah i remember. reading on wikihow articles about it and one of them said to wait 24 hrs. before. doing anything cause the person might change their mind. and i did wait that long but. nothing changed. and then after that amount of time i.............started. to. and you know what the really twisted part is?
i used my own brain injury to do so. it’s that. i don’t know that i’m ready to state the details. of the ‘attempt’. and like i said when my depression gets bad like really bad. i think about it a lot but that’s all it is thoughts.
um so. when i told jacob one of my exes about it. he’s ‘do you have a counselor?’ uh well i have a psych. [ologist] but i can’t tell her when i feel that way otherwise she’d break my confidentiality. that’s precisely why i told him! via fb. like don’t you get it? no apparently not. and now. we don’t talk. i ya know. was expecting more from him. we’re not like best friends or anything but when someone comes to someone else w/ that big a thing. i really don’t think it’s too much to ask. for them to, you know. say and provide more.
um. yeah but back to the ‘attempt’ and all that. well 1. i’ve read. that people w/ tbis are 6x more likely to. do so this. was also back when i was recovering from. my tbi and um 2. i’m still not really sure how to feel about it. i haven’t since btw if.