She's dieing in All About Hikaru/Yuki

Today my little Yuki barely had a heartbeat. She’s dieing. They don’t think she will survive another week. How will I tell my son his baby sister died? How will I keep going like nothing’s wrong? Because that’s what they will expect me to do. How do I hold a dead baby and convince myself to let her go again? How do I survive this? How will I find the courage to find another donor after this? I can’t....

And Jay will never know I was ever pregnant. He will have no idea what I’m going through. Because we aren’t best friends anymore and I never figured out how to talk to him to begin with. But I wish he was here now. Because I cant stop crying. There’s no way to make it okay. There’s nothing I can do.

I still haven’t learned how to say goodbye.