icing wrapping taping karen. in 2007: March 1: transferred fom FOD

um so. and i’m embarassed to admit this is that weird? am i only one like this? no i’m asking am i the only one like this who’s embarassed to admit things like this. no i really want to know.
um no. but here’s what i’ve been referring to. i’ve been icing my ankle or what i refer to as ‘icing’. and now. i’m embarassed. like oh i’m somehow not allowed to practice self well-being. is that weird, to feel that way? no i’m asking. is it. looking for an answer here.
um so. on the topic. of self well-being. i um. well and i know i left this part out bc well i’m embarassed and. again weird. that tape i bought from the dollar store? well soon as i got back. and up to my rm. one of the first things i did was wrap it. my ankle i mean. but god............the ‘icing’ well. what i’ve really been doing. is filling ziploc bags w/ freezing cold water. and then. putting it on my ankle. and omygod it feels so. damn. good. omygod..........o. my god. no see i’m the kindof person who’ll put off something like this off for as long as possible. and then when i finally do. resolve the situation. it feels so. damn good as i’ve stated. no a nd i keep stating this bc well. i don’t do this a whole lot.
and kaen idinno it’s just. i’m fine except i’m not. i mean..........i hate knowing that someone’s mom has died cause. then i get empathetic and i don’t like that feeling. it’s not that i don’t care: no i do and. i’m so deep that it causes problems. [but...............what’s the problem w/ being empathetic i don’t get it] no i don’t completely get it either. i don’t watch the news cause. i don’t want to imagine myself in those situations people go through. but. that doesn’t answer the question no i know.
no and it sounds bad. and i like Karen and her mom. and my mom it’s just. the reminder of it all. please don’t midunderstand this.
oh yeah. fuk. um so another. reason i had a setback thurs. er another symptom of it rather. tbi setback is. that when i fell. well when i went to sleep fri. a.m. a few mins. after my face felt tender. it didn’t hut, or anything. i’m better now i’m good. since. thurs. it’s just idinno.