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Y’all. He came home tonight to pack up his stuff. He gets the key to his apartment tomorrow and will be moving tomorrow and Saturday. He had told me earlier today that we needed to talk about her. So when he came home I asked him what about her he wanted to talk about. I had to cajole him to tell me.

He proceeds to tell me that the reason he kept telling me not to hate her and that it wasn’t her fault is because he has been lying to her. He told her that we went to counseling two years ago, which is true, but said that it didn’t work. And that basically we have been separated this whole time but still living together. So basically he lied to her to try and get in her pants and I guess she thinks I am clinging to him when I have no reason to be. She has no idea he just dumped all this on me less than a month ago.

That makes me hate her a little less, but not completely because you still were messing with a married man. He plans on telling her the full truth tonight. I told him he better. Or I might have to. I don’t know how she will react to the news.

The best case for me would be she doesn’t move in with him. But I feel like she’s too desperate not to. Not that I am wanting to get back together with him. But I do care and wish he could figure himself out before just jumping in the deep end without any way of swimming out.

He had two panic attacks while he was here packing his stuff up. I guess the finality of it all was getting to him. Not being able to be with me and the kids. Not being able to have his cake and eat it too. I did feel sorry for him. But he made his bed and he has to lie in it. He has to finish out this mistake to truly change I think. I hope he tries to set up some more therapy for himself. He needs it. Anyone who can hide their true self for 17+ years and do this to someone they love obviously needs some help.