Seeing red. in The day to day

I’m really tired of being pissed off. My husband has just started thinking more and more about himself and not the kids. This is out of character for him and it is really irking me. He’s itching for his freedom and not thinking about any of the consequences.

Yesterday he was supposed to have a conference call from 6-7. I had training for my work starting at 6. Our 12 year old (I will refer to him as B from now on) has Scouts on Wednesday. He was supposed to take his conference call and come pick up our son to take him to Scouts. The 4 year old (I will refer to him as A.) came with me to my training. I picked up B from school and dropped him off at the house like I always do when I have to close at work. I told him that his dad would be there to take him to Scouts at the normal time. This is not a new routine. I didn’t mention to him that I had training because he would be with his dad and not home, so he shouldn’t be looking for me.

Around 4 pm, my husband texted to say the conference call had been moved to 5-6. He was going to take it at work, then leave and pick up B and go to Scouts. I said okay. I left work around 5:30 with A to go to my training. At 7:30, B texts my phone and asks why I am not home yet. I said “What do you mean? Is Dad not there with you? Are you not at Scouts?” He responded with, “Dad said I don’t have Scouts tonight. He’s not here.”

Ya’ll. (That’s right. The southern came out in me.) I flipped out. I sent a text to my husband and asked if he was with B. He said, “No, I figured you would be home by 7. What time does your training get out?” I told him I didn’t know when my training was getting out and that I was expecting him to be with our son. B was at home. Hadn’t had dinner. Didn’t know why I wasn’t there and he was alone for as long as he was. I was so pissed off.

My husband decided to go Pokemon instead of coming home and making sure our child had dinner to eat. He decided since I don’t want him around the girl he’s seeing that instead of taking B with him, he would just leave him at home so he could go hang out with her. I told him in no uncertain terms that that cannot happen again. If he had told me he wasn’t going to take him to Scouts I would have made plans for B to come with me. I am still pretty livid about it. I couldn’t even talk to him about it last night because I was so upset. I sent him a pretty lengthy email this morning. He responded to me via text. “You’re right. I’m sorry.” No fucking kidding I’m right.

The paperwork from Legal Aid came in the mail yesterday. If I hadn’t had training until 8:15 last night I would have started filling it out. I get off work at 3 today so it will be the first thing I do when I get home. I am just praying everything works out in my favor so we can get this divorce thing moving. I am over it.

Last updated January 23, 2020