Nine of Aer in tarot journey

The second attention. A cruel fate. Mental or physical suffering (i.e. severe depression). violent attacks. Martyrdom. Isolation from needed help and comfort. Scandal. Misery, hatred, brutal neglect or abandonment. Unreasoning violence. Suicide.

What you think
with the mind
you must first feel.
What you feel
comes from a deep well
within you.
As within, as without
all fear must be surrendered
or you will hold self-doubt.
The mind can cripple the awakening soul-
The mind is an enemy of the budding spirit.

So I was running late (regular entry next) and typing out the card meaning was all I did but I thought about it while out. I would say this A cruel fate-mental and physical suffering… misery… hatred… would apply to me personally. Over the last 3 days it’s been pretty rainy and generally yuck out. I’ve gotten a migraine each day. I expect it again today.... maybe not but highly likely. I’m gonna make a regular entry in a moment. As far as how this applies to the world I live in I don’t want to go too broad and I hope I don’t have to deal with a suicide or scandal anytime soon BUT I did notice a few dead animals on the way out.... and was extra mindful of possible dear comitting suicide using my hood on the way out this morning :)