Ruined in ❅journal 2019❅

I ruined our special night…

So Isaac had some free time and I messed up. So bad. I touched myself without his permission. I came without permission…

I feel so…so dissapointed in myself. I wanted to show him how thankful I was for him and I failed. He said it was okay but he was dissapointed. I I never wanted him dissapointed in me…

My friend said it’ll get easier and maybe he found disobedience hot…but Isaac needs a perfect one. I have to make up for it somehow. …

I was going to send a picture of my breasts but I was shaking to hard..there’s has to be something I can do for proper forgiveness the c.video call was supposed to be forgiveness but I could not even do that. … Failure