I hope you feel better soon! Being sick blows. :-( You said, "I'm kinda back into not worrying about what I eat because I just don't feel good about myself and have no incentive to even try anymore." I struggle with thoughts like that a lot, as I get a big case of Idontgiveafuckitis about my weight, food, sobriety, everything, when I get severely depressed. I don't know what the solution to the depression is, so I just try to control my behaviors to the best of my ability even if I feel like crap inside. I heard this saying recently that kind of reminds me of that: "Do better now, feel better later." I'm still kind of waiting for the "feel better" part, although I notice that I tend to feel better about myself when I feel more in control of where my life is going. You're been taking more control over where your life is going, by going back to school, ditching toxic people, etc., so I think you'll feel better once you can reap more of the rewards of those things (which can take some time) and don't feel sick.

Since you're not feeling well, maybe it's just best to try to focus on getting better and not being too hard on yourself in the mean time. You can always get back on track with the eating stuff when you're feeling better, although maybe there are healthy foods that could help you feel a little bit better now, in the mean time. I actually like to have soup and orange juice when I'm sick because I think the vitamins and steam from the soup help, even if I also want to eat a box of Oreos, lol. I hope you feel better soon.