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I was up early so I got a head start on my morning and I didn’t give myself enough time to overthink or hesitate about leaving the house. I got my energy and vibrations up and I headed to the grocery store to up my inventory and to apply at the three places that I wanted to apply at. I felt very demoralized after Vita fell through last week, which feels like weeks ago, and I got up the nerve to try again somewhere else. I called all three of them last week to make sure that they do accept resumes. Turns out, they meant online. I tried to apply online already but these people’s websites are shit. So frustrating. Winners at least gave me a card that has the link on it but guess what? That location is not even listed. How the fuck did they even staff their store? I dropped an application off at an art supply store also and they were like yes we take resumes but you have to apply online and we’ll match your resume with that… none of their stores in my city show up on their website either. Like, come on! There is a bulk food store that at least accepted my resume but as soon as I walked in I saw some skinhead looking white junkie stocking shelves and mean-mugging everybody that was walking in… I don’t want to meet him let alone work with him. Maybe he’s a nice guy? I will honestly be surprised if he is. I welcome the surprise! I don’t mean to judge a book by its cover but why does a person need to be giving everybody an eye roll and a stink eye so early on a Monday morning? If I end up as his manager he is getting a long talking to about that mug of his. I know restless bitch face when I see one but that was not it. I don’t need people to walk around smiling all damn day but giving people dirty looks is a hell no for me. I posted at another Vita online on Friday, maybe that one will manifest for me? I applied online at a kid’s toy store also and at a pet shop… which I don’t actually want because I don’t believe in caged animals. Maybe I will get a call today? Not that I want to answer my phone right now with collection agencies coming for me. Oh! yes, I got an e-mail from Indeed telling me that my resume wasn’t even saved! So this whole time it wasn’t even up. Why does everything have to be online? The World Wide Web hates me. Blah, I will find these two stores’ contact info and skip their websites and just e-mail them my resume. That’s all that I can do at this point for them. I haven’t even circled back and tried that thrift store yet. The woman was acting like I was trying to fight her when I asked if she was taking resumes. She was just hostile and rude. Pfft. I’m trying not to be tense, nervous and triggered but I’m running on three hours of sleep. I’ll go nap and try again.

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Ugh, the Art Supply store website can’t even find my Country now. Oh, Canada. The Winners is not hiring so that is why they are not listed. There are only openings in the part of town that has an outbreak of robberies. My grocery store had six officers working the doors as security because this outbreak of crime is so rampant. Man, I just want to crawl into a hole.

Ok, I’m updating myself again lol. I know nobody reads my 40 daily entries. I had to use Internet Explorer to make that art supply stores website work. I found a different location that is hiring for Winners but it is in my old run-down neighbourhood. Actually, I think it’s become a very ethnic part of town now which is perfect. It’s for assistant manager, I don’t want to be in management but I just need an interview and maybe they can take me on as a regular joe. I really don’t want to be in management while I’m trying to go to school. Not that I would be upfront about that in an interview. I’ll do it if I have to, I just hate the level of responsibility and it just feels like a trap to be a manager because now you can’t escape any of the problems AND you become a bit of a lifer because of that progression trap. We go from grade one to twelve and we just keep waiting for the next thing in, some of us anyway. I’m not making any sense… or dollars lol

Last updated December 09, 2019