The look on my face in What's Happening

If you’re actually serious about taking a break from alcohol you’re better off just doing it and never mentioning it to anyone. You might try to make the declaration that you’re refraining from alcohol in hopes that your peers will support you, but that is almost never the case.

Once word gets out that you’re temporarily on the wagon it seems like everyone you know tries whatever they can to get you to drink. I’ve tried to explain to people that just TWO beers after work on a Friday has the potential to spiral into an entire weekend of binge drinking for me. It’s hard for them to understand.

It’s my own fault. I’m in total control of my actions when I decide to drink. I even have an advantage over other people with alcohol abuse problems because I’m not addicted to drinking. I seldom ever crave alcohol to a level that I can’t easily control, which means I don’t HAVE to drink! That is - until I have one, then I need as much as I can get.

In a joking,not-joking type of way my roommate mentioned how depressed I look tonight. Little does he know that when I’m actually depressed I usually don’t look “depressed”. I told him I’m actually feeling really good - at least in terms of depression and overall mental health.

I don’t doubt that I had a look on my face though. I just don’t know what to call it. Maybe: lost or unsure or confused , but all the things making me feel this way are things are innocent and resolvable. I’m not sweating them.