Quitting smoking in Aftermath

I dont completely want to quit smoking but I HAVE to me being rushed to the hospital a few nights ago not able to breathe on oxygen nebulizers for 7 hours waa torture and scary, and it could have been alot worse!

I have been ignoring my wheezing lack of energy and coughing for a long time years and it has recently gotten worse until the perfect storm of me getting a cold on top of it has esculated whatever I have underlying!

Im scared. They said it could be copd empathsema however your spell it. Or asthma. Praying for just asthma.

Whatever it is I have officially fucked up my lungs most likely permanently how severe? I dont know. .

I love smoking and smoke alot but I absolutlely HATE it. Its a frienemy to me. Always there but slowly killing me.

I am scared that once my cold comes back that I will start again. As right now I couldnt even have 2 puffs without having a major coughing fit.

But as for now its hard but not as hard as I thought and I had a shit ass day on top of it all today.

So i havent smoked all day today.

So I guess today will officially be my quit day.

Reading alot of stop smoking books bought some gum. Just trying to hold on.

Wish me luck.