At peace in Torridaussity Two

Well I am done, aside from this, talking about the situation with my friend unless he ever contacts me again and then I will update with that, but I am mostly at peace with things. I told him all I needed him to know and that's all I can do. I am moving forward. In other news I have decided to really get into my one month to live challenge and tie it to my giving up negativity for Lent. Everyday on face book I am making sure to be positive in my posts, in my day to day interactions I am trying to be encouraging and positive. I am trying to make sure the people who mean the most to me know it. I am making sure to live life focused on what God wants for me because so far living trying to get what I want hasn't ended up well. I already feel more at peace and more strong to face the bumps that are in my road. A bump in my road that I am in denial with/slowly admitting is that my auto immune disorder has returned. I haven't told anyone yet that I am pretty sure it is back. I am getting blisters on my scalp and in various places on my body. (Just a recap I have an auto immune disorder that causes the body to attack and destroy the proteins that hold my skin together). I need to see my doctor, but I don't want to. The only courses of treatment wrought havoc on my body. I was looking at old pictures of the time I was sick and I can't stand to look at what I became not only from the meds, but because my skin was covered in blisters. I will call the doctor I will get treatment, I have to. If left untreated I could suffer serious health issues that are worse than just the disorder. I just need time to process it all. That's about it for now. Thanks for reading, may your night be filled with love and laughter.