Terrified in Inside My Head

My doctor just called me an hour ago. Apparently the RMA NJ doctors have weekly group meetings and my case was discussed. I am considered an 'abnormal case' and instead of waiting until next Wednesday he wants to bring me in on Friday or Saturday. What happened to 'cautiously optimistic'??!! I'm getting so fucking sick of this back and forth. I know he got involved in my care in the middle of the case, but every time I see him I get a different answer. Ectopic is pretty much ruled out. Since this pregnancy is not immediately life threatening I'm seriously considering blowing off all appointments for the next two weeks. I'll be about eight weeks by then and an ultrasound at that point should be pretty definitive. No fetus? Fine. D+C me then. Going into the office evey other day to be told different things each time is going to cause me to have a fucking heart attack and/or nervous breakdown.

I should've stuck with Dr. Ziegler as much as I didn't like him. Its just my second beta fell from the original level and I assumed an impending iscarriage. And since they usually wait 1-2 cycles after a miscarriage before starting women on IUI or IVF I figured I would go to RMA NJ in the interim for a second opinion. But the beta levels rose. And continue to rise apparently along with the appearance of a gestational sac and yolk sac. So wtf??!!! If God or Higher Power exists just please give me an answer, either way. Please. I can't handle this much longer I just want to curl in a ball and cry.