Disjointed entry.. in General musings

I'm sure that's how it will come out because that's how I am right now... I'm just gonna rewrite some of what I put down on paper. .. And, has the master manipulator been at it again? With two days of F's urgings I confronted Hub last night- which thrills F no end- said he is "so proud" of me, and made a comment about it not being about his getting pleasure out of it - to which I answered, 'but you DO,' but it being for ME - for my own good. Last night he talked about my being stronger and more self-confident than he'd ever seen me and that I mustn't take any shit from Hub and added, "or from ME either, If I do something or something is bothering you I want you to call me on it." I said, 'Oh, don't, worry, I WILL!' My old boss, back during the late 90s portion of F and me had always told me, "he won't respect you if you are a schmattah." and maybe he was right - coming at things without being that cowering fear-filled girl is certainly different. Afraid of "upsetting" him or driving him away...terrified of "losing him"....Not this time. He keeps calling us "friends" and years ago that was such a sore point for me - but I'm trying not to let it get to me this time, trying to see that maybe it is his "coping mechanism" in a way... He told his boss yesterday, when he called me from his desk, and was yelled at, "What are you DOING? She's MARRIED, and her husband doesn't want you talking to her." He replied with the "friends" remark. Then his half sister apparently asked him, "what's going on THERE?" and he told her, "we're friends." Then he makes a comment, since I am stuck in the house all day with plumbers working, he'd tell them , "Just keep making noise and ignore the noises coming from the bedroom." Friends, right.