An Anchor, A Field Trip and an Idiot in Everyday Ramblings

“If you hold onto the beauty and the inspiration and the clarity that is music you will have an anchor. In this life you will not be too far swayed by what the world is.” The pianist Van Cliburn said this in his rich Louisiana tinged accent that always seemed to me to be about to burst into laughter.

It does seem so true. Music can take us many places and intensify our moods but left alone with it I believe it can drop us into our true nature, both in our bodies and spiritually.

My oldest sister is not doing so well now into her fourth week of radiation and chemotherapy. They had to send her upstairs to a special place to get IV fluids yesterday and may have to hospitalize her for a few days to get her stabilized. Kes is going up to be with her tomorrow. I am glad she can go though I know it is a challenge because their kitchen remodel just started this week.

It is what it is. I’ll go too if I am needed.

This afternoon I'll hike up to the hospital to sign the papers for the yoga class for caregivers. I had to go through 4 hours of online emergency oriented training this weekend (completely spaced the Oscars doing that) and I still need my T.B. patch test and the background check.

After 16 days with not a word and some intense self-restraint on my part I received a text from Mr. Fine China on Sunday morning (while I was in my hormone therapy yoga workshop) telling me there was a show on the wildlife in Ireland along the river Shannon that I would enjoy on public broadcasting.

I think this is what ex lovers that one still remains friends with do.

Send little communications about a common interest that packs in the information… I am well and thinking about you and would like to know if you are well and think about me occasionally.

I waited hours to respond and did so in kind. He answered with a lame joke and that was it.

The class info and resource guide for my Beginning Birding 2 class came on Monday and I was so disappointed because the locations are way out and rural and not even vaguely accessible by public transportation and I thought I was going to have to cancel. I emailed the teacher and the Audubon educational coordinator and they were wonderful!

For this first class the teacher is going to stop by two blocks from my house and pick me up and they have promised to get me to all the locations somehow. I am so excited I am like a little kid. I ordered rain pants that will be here tomorrow, and all the books I didn’t have.

I admit I forwarded the class materials to Mr. Fine China last night. Turns out he had just returned from a local Audubon meeting where they mentioned my class and he was impressed by the materials.

He is such an idiot to choose not to be in my life. I really truly get that now.

But it is O-V-E-R.