eczema. and emily. in 2007: March 1: transferred fom FOD

um. i forgot what i was going to say about eczema. so. btw i’ve figured out how to link. entries since no one would answer my question about that. yeah um i don’t have a whole lot of patience........i really don’t. um no. i thought about it and. i can just. post a, ya know. link. to the other entry. instead of always explaining myself.
so um emily. right i’ve mentioned her before. she’s from rmhs. she’s. intense right so she stopped by on mon. a whirlwind as always talks a mile a minute sort of person. well. not really. motormouth. like ‘hi how are you good to see you how are things oh it’s such a nice day’ kindof thing. dear god please. slow the hell down. anyway so she brought a new lady w/ her. sasha i think she was. latin american or of latin american descent rather. i liked her better then emily. right cause she was quiet and not. a motormouth. i can see emily being a cheerleader. no i don’t mean that in a bad way. it’s just she’s perky and energetic and. not well not low key. and i’m a really mellow low key person. ya know? like i know that sounds offensive and bad. which is why. i won’t tell. her that as much as i want to. yeah so emily stopped by for only a few mins. so. the next big mtng is oct. 3rd and she’s ‘yeah i’m excited’ yeah no i got that. believe me i got that. ‘we’ll have a blast’ well idinno.............a meeting isn’t exactly something i think of as fun ya know? hey cause ya know what sounds like fun? that. having a meeting. yeah ok just. tone it the fuk down. i’m honestly hoping emily quits. i mean. i don’t hate her but i certainly wouldn’t get coffee w/ her either. before her i had rachel and. i really liked rachel she was v. nice. and quiet. and like not intense. yeah i don’t like intense people.
so. idinno............i’m thinking sasha might be the new person though i’m not sure. ya know it’s funny: i really liked marty. he um. worked for support. not rmhs. different co. he was cool he was. one of the people who um. lasted the longest. and then he quit. and ya know it’s sad i get to know someone and i really like them and then. well there we are. i like linda my advocate she’s really nice. well no her job title. is ‘advocate’. but, idinno. the only time i see her is at the mtngs. and.........so when i was living at steph’s i had. alex a lady. as my advocate and we really hit it off. i liked her a lot. we’d. go and well one time we went to starbucks. one in uh............safeway. so ya know. the meetings weren’t just. in the house/residence. no i like linda. but for some reason i. don’t want to have the whole closeness of. me talking to the lady about everything. the way i did at steph’s. or. me. i guess it was too. like. not isolated but v. close in a weird way if that makes sense? [if it doesn’t atm. i really don’t know how else to describe/explain it.]. well also my bedrm was on the first floor so it was. i couldn’t...........well. there was of course less rm. between that and the front door. it was front door, living rm./kitchen bathrm to the left basement to the right. and at the end of the little ‘hall’ was my rm.
yeah and i was thinking about it and. so currently where i live. the bus doesn’t come to the house in fact it won’t. it’s out of area. well when i was living at steph’s it did. it picked me up dropped me off. at. the house same w/ the other roommate/housemate. and her job. she literally was required to be at the house in order to do her job. and ya know she didn’t leave it. so. yeah of course i wanted to. and she had people over [well. family] and the spacing and the. just the way the house was laid out and my rm. in ref. to the rest of it. the house. well. i don’t think that helped me. who can sleep when someone’s. in the next rm. making noise? no one that’s who. i. fall asleep later then a lot of people. like during the day. cause i don’t sleep at night. [ok so i do sleep.]. and. jenn and kris had to get up early in order to go to work. which, ya know, is fine a lot of people do. it’s just. well as said. and steph was always there like physically there. watching me brush my teeth or w/e. but so far.............since like er. um june really. i’ve done well w/ that. not perfect but. pretty well. right yes bc. i’m not being watched doing it. [it’s weird: i’m not even doing this for me. no bc doing it for me has absolutely no impact on me. at all so.].
idinno. just something i was thinking about is all.