I am not okay. in Phoenix

Have to drive several hundred miles tomorrow to take my son to college. My baby is leaving. I’ve been fine, mostly, until today. Today, I can’t stop crying. I can’t stop trying to imagine what it’s going to be like not having him here with me and I just can’t imagine it. It’s just darkness. And that feels pretty terrible because I still have another, younger son at home.

I know I’ll be okay, that everything will be okay. I’ll adjust. I always do. But right now, today, in the grips of a major depressive episode, I am very much not okay.