August 17, 2019 in Productivity Diary

I feel like I’m having an anxiety attack. I’m just so, so nervous. Two more days. What if things don’t go well? What if I’m late and technology breaks down and I don’t know what to do? What if I can’t pronounce a clear English word for my own sake? What if I couldn’t breathe and my mouth is constantly dry? I’m just so, so nervous. So much anxiety. I never understood the concept of “anxiety attack.” Now I guess it’s like feeling nervous, but it overtakes your body, in a larger scale.

I am so nervous. I am so worried and I won’t do well.

But you know what? If I don’t do well or if I have nothing left to say and they have nothing left to ask, I’ll let them go early. They’ll be happy with it. Will I get in trouble with the higher authorities? So nervous. I should just get up and do something. So very nervous right now.

Last updated August 18, 2019