My heads under water. in Exiled to prosebox...

This John Legend song really is amazing. "All of Me" Go check it out.

So I promised a real entry. Yo. Hey, What's shaking Proser? My life is... uneventfully hectic. Is that possible?

My car has broken down... twice... in the past couple weeks. To the tune of 1,400 hundred dollars.

That shit is crazy. Yo. Im a broke bitch.

Car seems to be going better now. Thanks Jesus

Men

Well. That field is actually a joke. I had a couple dates with a guy who I thought was was going somewhere, and then he a) talked about how he believes in open relationships and b)wants it to "evolve naturally" through casual interactions?

What the hell does that even mean? His house is filled with Crystals and wanted to Riiki (sp?) heal my soul. Meh. He had a nice ass. What more could I want.

I just think I am too set in my ways to date. I mean, casual sex is not hard to come in st. Louis. I actually turned down two guys tonight. pfft.

Ive been on a reading kick lately... Like... Just keep reading horrible young adult fiction books. Are you guys on good reads? I am Joshfries on there as well.

Life has been Work, gym, read, world of warcraft. Wash, rinse, repeat.

nothing special. Life is mellow. complacent. stagnant. I need a change, but am afraid to make one.

I feel like I am going to wake up at 50 and go... fuck. Where did the last 18 years go?

I guess that is a fear of mine. being stagnant. rooted. Isnt that fucked up? People search there whole life for a place they can claim. take root and grow.

I just feel trapped. Like my heads under water.

(that was a good full circle, eh?)