Eggs and Seafood in Pregnancy Journal

seems like the only things that don’t make me feel weird lately. Not complaining; I love both. And I don’t have 30 hens that I buy soy-free non-gmo feed for nothing lol.

Yesterday was horrid. With having to work 10+ hour days, it’s now difficult to get a now much-needed nap. Yesterday though, I started the day with a big glass of water, because my midwife told me I needed to drink more. About 20 minutes later, I vomited all the water up, along with acrid stomach acid. Gross. In-between getting morning farm chores done, feeding and watering, dressing for a long work day in the melting hotness that is our summer, I really really really just wanted a 10 minute nap and maybe a fried egg. I didn’t do either, however, and I probably should have done both.

So I spent all day miserable, feeling sick, HUNGRY, and exhausted. And did I mention it was HOT? 88 degrees, and like 80% humidity.

Did I mention that I hired a midwife? It’s been so long and so infrequent coming here… I’ve barely written, and I’m sure I’ve missed a lot.
I was going back and forth about the midwife for a couple weeks. Medical decisions are not my forte… in fact I don’t think I’ve had to make a medical decision in my entire life (besides deciding to not see a GP, that is). But the medical model of pregnancy is… incorrect, to say the least. Pregnancy is not medical; it’s not a disease, it’s not even abnormal. Pregnancy is a normal human function. And if medical is required, then the hospital is right down the street (less than 10 minutes).

When DH and I went in for my first appointment, I was immediately convinced that it was the right path for me. She spent a full 2 hours with us, asked us about our emotional state, our plans, our thoughts, and of course took a full health history and ordered labs, but she and her assistant were just very attentive and thorough. Her stats are also amazing, with a less than 2% transfer rate; most of which are VBAC births; vaginal birth after C-section. She’s done breech births, twins, etc. She’s often called out to the large local Amish communities, and she spent years in Haiti doing midwifery - ! where she gained most of her emergency experience.

It’s funny how quickly pregnancy re-wires the brain. I have noticed several different things. My decision making abilities have decreased drastically. What has always taken me mere seconds takes as long as 15 minutes to decide. I can’t remember things as well- recall is horridly slow. I think my reaction time has been stable, however. Emotionally, I’m very reactive. I don’t often fall for it; after a few hard years of depression as a teenager, my emotional management skills are vastly improved. Yet I am aware of and necessarily feel these strong, unreasonable emotions as if they’re quite reasonable. And I wonder if I will fall into the trap…

That’s it so far, I guess. Physically I am tired, and my midwife has warned me to take it easy and drink more water. I don’t know if I can, however. I have enough to pay for the birth- but I still would like a larger savings for when LO arrives and I can’t make anything for a year+… DH will still be working, but if he doesn’t get a raise soon (he’s due for one, after 2 years), I am worried about budget restraints.
Here I am worried about finances and it really should be the least of it. We are largely debt-free. Own several vehicles, house is paid down 70% in 6 years… plus we are sitting on a ton of assets. I just need to stop. lol.