business trip, psychological breakdown, new job eventually in Misadventures of West Virginia Woman

Due to the tornado in Charleston my husband Talan is working with AWP helping the power company direct traffic in order for the power company to fix powerlines so thousands of people will no longer sit in the dark.

Yesterday he came home for us to barely get to sleep. At 4 am this morning i helped him pack what he needed. I spent most of the last little bit of money i earned to be sure he has enough food to eat for the next couple of days. The company is paying for his hotel as well as paying him $50 a day to purchase needed supplies for his stay. His next paycheck should be pretty well considering they worked him 13 1/2 hours yesterday and i have no idea how many it will be today.

He keeps asking me to get Snapchat. I have never used snapchat before. I am happy texting or talking on facebook. For some reason he always lusts for me while he is on business trips and flirts with me. I know we got married in October but the honeymoon phase ended months ago. I guess i shouldnt complain after all he still finds me attractive. Why not play these games while he is at home? I hope if we ever can afford a honeymoon we will have this fun.

My friend Tella went to the hospital because of her copd but she was place in the psych unit for her anxiety attacks. She hasnt been there in almost a year. The doctors were doing a good job adjusting her due to her bipolar. She said she felt ashamed for being committed in the unit. I told her going for medical help is nothing to be ashamed of.

She feared her boyfriend Tyler will break up with her for getting medical help. I know he has a heart of gold and will stand beside her no matter what. She asked me if i will quit being her friend because of her getting medical care. That is ridiculous. She is afraid because her ex Jeff dumped her for getting psychological medical help. I told her we are not Jeff focus on getting better we love her.

After dad died i debated on placing myself in the psych unit. I instead talked to close friends, talked to the crisis hotline and wrote in my diary. I sometimes cried holding my dads clothes and talked to him like he is still here. Some days i cried refusing to get out of bed. My husband Talan made me keep living. While he was at work Tella would call me. We would go out to lunch and i cried while Tella held me. My mom who was falling apart more than me wasnt best for my healing process. My best friends were my dads pallbearers. They held me as i chain smoked and fell apart. My friends know if i am smoking i am on the verge of a nervous breakdown. Rest of the time i dont crave cigarettes. I dont know why i do that.

So far i filled out paperwork for the background check for my new job at Joanns. I am waiting for that to come back. As soon as they get the go on the background check i should be working there soon. Goodbye 5 hours at Ollies. I hope i am treated better at Joanns.

My other best friend Amanda Dawn quit highschool after getting pregnant in the 11th grade. Due to her bipolar all 3 kids were took from her but with hard work she is allowed to see her kids. Amanda is determined to get her GED before her oldest son graduates highschool. Hunter just started highschool but i believe after years of dedication Amanda will complete her GED yet. She says she needs to prove to her kids how important it is to graduates highschool i am proud of her for trying to be better.

She been talking about going to college but i dont know if her mental state can handle it. I hope Amanda will prove me wrong and do something Amazing. She wants me to go back to college with her I already have an associates and bachelors degree. I cant wait to see her graduate.I have known her since i was 13. Now here i am 32. She still trying to get her GED. I respect her dedication.

Sorry this entry is so long. I am going check on the cat food clean some cat litter and keep watching the new Charmed. I might find something else on netflix to enertain me. Sadly i am battling laundry. I wish i could do something fun but most of the time fun cost money.