Try and relax. in Whey and Sonic Screwdrivers.

Don't know whether it's the weather or the depression or inconsistent sleep or the drinking but I've been so tired and demotivated all year.

Yet when I think back to the years before I met Candi, this is kind of how I am by default. Getting going in the morning on my "days off" is incredibly difficult. I think the problem is expecting to be "in the mood" for all the things I have to do. Who ever is in the mood to be all "OH BOY, LET'S GET THAT TIRE FIXED" or "OH BOY, TIME TO DO ALL THE LAUNDRY." And since I'm avoiding such trivial things, I'm creating my own anxiety.

Oh yeah, yesterday kinda sucked. Got woken up by a neighbor alerting me to a flat tire. Nice of him, but interrupting my sleep always ruins my day. I put the donut on and as luck would have it MY BATTERY DIED. Ten minutes of playing a goddamned CD. My saving grace was that Elissa was keeping me company, so she was able to jump me. I was dragging my feet so much that by the time we got to the tire place, they were almost closing.

This really won't take me that long, yet I'm so stupidly anxious. I can't seem to relax. No wonder I drink so much.