The Great To-Do List of a Rage Fueled Weekend in Life

It really sounds more dramatic than it actually is.

You know how you get those moments where you’re just in the zone? Where you’re so fed up with no one else doing it that you just pound your coffee, roll up your sleeves and get elbow deep in that to-do list. Well that’s me today, I’m having one of those days.

And where I say Rage Fueled I’m not like “fuck everyone and the ground they walk on” I’m like “Okay I’ve had my outburst (2 entries? ago) now it’s time to do something to change the world” even if it is just my little corner of it.

I’ve always been of the perspective that a lot of emotions are really useless, or more so used inefficiently. This has been a perspective I’ve carried with me since I was a teen and people started cutting themselves. I’m not sure if that’s something that started in my generation, did our parents know kids who hurt themselves on purpose? I’m kinda curious about that.

ANYway, when I was around that age and had friends that were doing it, a lot of them cited that it was because the pain made them feel better or made them forget the other pain, either way it was always centered around something to do with “pain” and when I felt sad or angry I never felt the need to draw blood to hurt myself, I always thought “Well that’s dumb, it only hurts for a short while” (and by no means am I calling out those who cut or have cut, these are the memories and perspective of a 13 year old with little world vision)

So as a teen I was like “I can think of way better ways of hurting yourself and causing pain without any sort of draw to attention” (But I guess attention was also a factor) and when I got angry (omg stop talking to me while I’m typing, I love you honey but for reaaaal) I would do push ups until I couldn’t. And for a skinny mini like me, that could cause way more long term pain and actually be making gains (gaaaainzzzz)

I guess now as an adult I’ve translated that efficiency into cleaning rather than working out because lets be real, I’ve spent 20 years typing for fun, while 12 of it was spent in a kitchen, my wrists are toaaaast.

I have a pretty big list today, one that I am - of course - going alone. If I only get a quarter of it done I’ll be happy, it’ll at least set me up to make the rest of the week a little easier.

Must do:

• Wash, dry and fold Laundry (Including the laundry that has been sitting in my wife’s hamper for… a month?)
• Sweep, Vacuum floors
• Work on some art
• Complete 1 piece,
• Bang out a design for another
• Try to piece back together the DE Logo & Slap up a shirt design or two
• Go out and buy new baby clothes.
• Get litter for Mino and re-fill box.
• Figure out Dinner, and buy food for it.
• Wash and Sanitize all the bottles, re-fill.

Wanna do:

• Mop all the floors
• Tidy up a bit (file loose papers, collect the baby-toy sprawl)
• Organize Elly’s Room
• Clean up and sort/organize DnD stuff
• Start Preparing the next session
• Create Character sheets for Mari & Nori
• Flush out Derro(Darro?) And what he’s gonna be all about
• Clean Oven

I think that’s it. I’m sure there’s more, there’s always more 😳

Mood: Driven 🐱‍🏍
Listening to: Traffic (See what I did there!) 🚗🚗