Freaky Money in Current Events

The petting zoo yesterday was awesome. I wanted to share pics but I forgot my phone at Bev’s house. I spent the whole day there. She made black bean quinoa burgers which I thought were alright. She could have seasoned it more but that could just be me. Her oldest son really wanted to meet me. He is in grade one and her youngest son is in kindergarten. Her sons are the oldest of all my friends and family that have kids. We got along, they love me. I’m honestly not that comfortable with kids. I don’t like physical contact but they turned me into a jungle gym. I’ll be out of my comfort zones a lot this year so I went with it. Their father still lives in Quebec and they don’t have much of a male influence in their lives right now. Do I count? lol I’m too gay to function.

My calves have recovered so I finally got to go for a run today and test out my new running shoes. They are so great! They can breathe, they have a spring to it and they bend in all the right places. I barely went two blocks, however, because I did not re-up my groceries yesterday so I barely had breakfast. I have a lot of food to prep but there is no room in the fridge just yet. We’re getting together with extended family to celebrate my grandmothers birthday today so our fridge is full of my roommate’s food prep. None of which I can eat lol.

I am finally stressing out about money. I leant my other sister money and I ran into her at the mall the day she was supposed to return it to me. She said that she would wire it to me later but failed to do so. They clearly just ate at the food court that day. I know from when I lived with them that they always try and live way beyond their means. Most of their meals are takeout. Her boyfriend is the culprit. He will never act his wage. I don’t even want to get into that situation. Let’s just say that he is an addict, he’s been sober for years but he will never stop using people to get what he wants from them. I have plenty of experience with addicts and it is now very hard for me to feel sorry for them. He does not even a have soul to me. There is nothing in there when I look in his eyes. Just his need to only want to provide for himself. I should not have lent her that money but she made me feel sorry for her. She said that she spent her works money and they wanted it back sooner than she anticipated… so basically, she stole money from work? I didn’t want her to lose her job, I called her out on making such a stupid choice there. We can’t keep blaming the world for the choices that we make. We will see if they even bring it today.

The reason I am stressed about money is that it finally sunk in that I do not have income. Only “outcome”. Toni and I both developed an action plan for ourselves and next week we’re both aiming to get that ball rolling. This is my sixth week of unemployment. My little holiday is over, I am ready to get on that grind.