Dark Days in Negative Nancy

I took a Ancestry DNA test in April so I could make some progress on some of my dead ends in my family tree. For a long time I thought the man who raised me was not my biological father, but my mom always said he was. Probably in my 50\s I started believing he was. We both had the same medical conditions and the same temper. Well the DNA results came back showing no paternal matches and a woman who it said was a close relative either half sister, aunt or grandparent. We made contact and we are half sisters. Bio dad has been dead since 1977 and he was a convicted rapist. We had one ½ brother who died in 2009 and another ½ brother who has been in and out of prison his adult life.

I am not doing well with this news. I don’t want to get out of bed in the morning. Making my production at work is difficult and I’m making errors as I am having a hard time concentrating. I cry throughout the day and end up trying to numb my feelings by eating until I am miserable. I have started seeing a therapist and one of the things he suggested was journaling so here I am back with Prowse Box.