ok so I might be an insomniac. nocturnality. wow. in The Wonderland Years: 2014. Done.

All my life I've been nocturnal. apparently.

I started noticing it when I was 13. i'd be up at night when others wouldn't.

and up until just now I thought it was just insomnia. well sometimes it is. which btw is a survival tactic. in anorexics anyway. well for me. the less you eat the more your body forces you to stay awake in search for food. yeaah it's really annoying.

ok so here's the weird thing. I've been eating more than usual when not relapsing but. i'm still awake until 4, 5, 6 a.m. yeah so it's not that.

no there's this thing called 'nocturanality'. cats have it. owls do too. that's where we get the term 'nocturnal'.

we need nocturnal people. doctors um. firefighters. bar. staff.

wow. so it's a scientific thing. and not my choice.

[it also has to do w/ my night terrors/schizoaffective disorder].