Welp in I'm About To Have A Nervous Breakdown

Saw Michelle AND Dr. Gilbert both today.
They wanted me to enter an in-patient facility but I refused.

I know I know!

But money, I’m almost broke.
No job.
No insurance.
I just used the last of my cash paying my car paymemt and insurance. Yes, I’ve got some in savings but I’m going to have to crack into that to get these staples out and pay part of my court cost before they swear out a warrant for my arrest.

Anyways, I promised to follow up with the out-patient program and Dr. Gilbert upped my meds.

I’m trying,
I really am.
Yet I’ve completely alienated a few friends which adds to my delima.

Why can’t I just…I don’t know, wake up one day and not be so alone, depressed, crazy…and piss rainbows and shit gold while I’m at it.

And now time for a bowl of clam chowder.