Journaling Again in Starting Over 2019

It has been five years since I have last journaled. My life is still very much the same, yet quite different. Still married, still a doting mother, still neurotic. I added a child, lost my mother, and lost so much of who I used to be. It happens.

I have so much I want to write about, so much that has been locked up inside of me, that I don’t even know where to start. I know it will take some time to get it all out.

So, my son is about to graduate high school. My sweet boy. He has always been so special to me. I mean, all my kids are, but he understands me better than anyone else on this earth ever will. We understand each other. Our biggest bond is music. We both get chills or emotional in a way that makes you appreciate the other person for feeling it in the same way that you do. It’s just our thing. When we go somewhere together, just the two of us, we just drive around and zone out to the music. Sometimes I wish they could just stay kids forever, so I can always keep them safe, but I’m so excited for all the things in his future.

I have about 20 distractions right now keeping me from writing anything with much depth, but I definitely plan on writing later. It feels good to be back…