The Blue Place in The grotesque metamorphosis of a Bi-Polar human into a Tri-polar monster.

I’m trying to keep a dream journal as part of the lucid dreaming project, but so far I haven’t remembered my dreams either night since I’ve started. So…I dunno, maybe I should cut back on the flower?

…I don’t know if that’s going to happen.

So last night, I had been doing reality checks for the day (which is not long enough to form a habit), but I had some other techniques that I was going to try to kind of…brute force it.

So, I keep reading that one of the best and fastest ways to have a lucid dream is to just straight up tell yourself that you’re going to. Kind of like, “Okay brain, I need your cooperation, we are going to get lucid tonight.”

So I did that…I was very confident it was going to happen.

The next technique I used is really difficult, and everyone says it’s really difficult, but I’ve attempted it a few times in the past and I’ve had some promising results.

So, you just lay perfectly still until you trick your body into thinking you’re asleep.
You count “1…I’m lucid…2…I’m lucid…3…I’m lucid…” just to kind of keep your mind active and aware that you are still kind of in the drivers seat.

What’s really hard about it is that your body will start to do all of these checks to see if you’re asleep. You’ll get this tremendous urge to roll over…followed by itches everywhere, and then the cramps start to set in…but if you can get past all of that, you’ll start to see these blue-green waves flowing into the darkness, and they will start to take basic abstract shapes, and then the shapes will start forming more complex things like people, or monsters, or towns…but it’s all this blue-green color, and it’s still moving like water or smoke and hard to really make out what’s going on…this is usually as far as I get, but last night I was able to hang on through the blue zone until my body began to vibrate super hard until I couldn’t feel my body at all anymore, and this tunnel appeared and I started to feel myself leaving my body…

…and then I would either get scared or excited and jolt my body just enough to get back to the blue place, almost like my body sensed my reaction and was like, “Wait a minute…are you faking?”, because then it would take another count to 50-100 before I would get back to the vibration and the sensation of leaving the body.

I did this three times before I decided I needed to give up and actually just go to sleep for the night.

I had counted to 100 about six times in all.
I was in the blue place for an hour and a half though…
I dunno.
Time isn’t real, so it would make sense that my counting wouldn’t matter if I’m between dimensions.

So…anyway, I’ve been doing my reality checks all day. I’m going to get this down.

I started doing reality checks when I was 13, but I’ve never been able to keep on it consistently enough to make it a habit that would appear in my dreams.

This time is going to be different though.
I have some very important things I have to do, and I’m positive they can only be done in the astral plane.

Maybe tonight, if I can get it, I’ll come see you.
I’ll just keep promising you that every night.
And then one night, I’ll be there.
I promise.
I love you.
-Dane