Buried Alive in Current Events

(this song was my mood all of yesterday)
My boss is straight up not talking to me. Texting anyway. I know that I am overthinking it. It’s just that… well, it’s like this, he likes duality. Tom and Juston are like night and day. Tom and Jess are like night and day. Things with him are either light or dark, clean or dirty, left or right etc. I suspect that this is why nothing is ever good enough for him. There is always something better. I know he has OCPD (obsessive-compulsive personality disorder) and it drives us all insane because nothing can ever be done because nothing can ever be good enough. Juston was the assistant running his store before I replaced him. Jess was his other assistant, my assistant basically. He always has to compare things to something else. He spent my last review complaining about Jess. Which was not appropriate. Now I have hired Karamjeet and she is better than me, no contest but she is confused as to why he wants to complain to her about me. This is his MO. A couple of weeks ago before her I was doing a great job and now he is saying “I am not happy with how Tom is running this store.” Does he tell me that? No just my staff. She told me that if he ever disrespects her like that she will walk out on the spot. She had options to work at other stores before I hired her to work at mine. I’m just the only one that can afford her wage.
I have to go back to the doctors today to see when I am cleared to go back to work. My flu symptoms are gone and my shingles have cleared up. I am supposed to be off for the rest of the week but I just really want to get back to it and prove my worth. Karamjeet really wants and needs Brad and I sit down and hash things out because climate at my store is too toxic for her. Two months ago I showed up at his other store with an expensive bottle of aged whiskey to make a peace offering. He always needs an enemy and I am the squeaky wheel so he tends to react like I am attacking him.
I just have it in my head that they are preparing to terminate me. Getting a severance ready because they have Karamjeet now. She has some nefarious ways about her and I do not want to throw her under the bus but I told Brad the list of responsibilities that I do not want her to have. I didn’t explain why but it was overheard that she wanted to hire everybody laid off from her other store and take over my scheduling so that she could work the shifts that she likes working. She saw me doing the profit & loss report on Monday and she started explaining to me how to generate fake numbers to keep topside happy. She then started rearranging the schedule to suit her needs without consulting my staff, she does not need to but I treat them with a little bit more respect than that. They do not respect our work and our job Tom. You have to stop trying to please everybody. I know she is right. She is here to help me and teach me and she is going to quit as soon as her store is rebuilt. Sooner if they disrespect her or try and terminate me. Honestly, I have a fantasy about getting fired. The severance would be huge and I could pay off my car and work anywhere else. It would light a fire under my ass and I would finally start looking for another job. Anyway, I guess I’ll go eat some breakfast, shower and center my mind before I leave the house and see what the doctor has to say.