Party like a rockstar in Riverdale

Party like a rockstar

I like that song but it does not describe my weekend unfortunately. :p

I am actually really wanting to party a bit now that spring is comming and I look and feel better.

Nas came over last night. We chilled and semi fooled around like teenagers really. But he had to work and said he'd come back later but than said he had to work over time :(

So I didn't get it in. It pissed me off a bit because he left around 6 kept saying I better pick my phone up as he was done at 1:30. I waited till 12 that's when he said he had to work overtime. I didn't say much I am kind of used to him being flakey lately. At least he told me which is a lot for most of the guys I meet and know. But I am trying not to react too badly to it. I got over things going on Nd I might wanna see him another time. But I guess another part is stop taking him so seriously. Meet other guys too. Out w the old in w the new.

But out of all the guys I've known he is the only semi decent one he will travel far and wide to see me on the bus usually tells me when and if he is comming. Is affectionate and mild mannered so far. A good guy pretty much. Not a deamon. Plus knowing someone and feeling comfortable with them is important for me lately. Plus he does please me and make sure that he pleases me the most out if other guys. I know what to expect from him mostly. I know what the relationship is and what it is now.

But I do feel I deserve better and more really. And I think it will come for me sooner or later. I'm still young. Going to keep my options open focus on myself mostly and not have huge expectations for people lately.

I went and saw my mom. It was nice. She seems pretty happy with things. We are going next weekend to see a dance show at the theatres. We see a lot of different shows at the theatres it's kind of our thing growing up. It was nice to see her for "Family Day" since she is pretty much my only person other than my grandma who I consider to be family. So I am lucky for that. (Oh and my kitty cat)

So yup. Weekends done it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be.

I'm ok with it being over.

Onwards and up words.